No trees, no wind
looking for nature in
this digital bin.
i don’t desire much from life:
i can call my own
my old wooden shelf
my lifetime library
white curtains weighing
my canopy bed
a ceilingful of fairy-lit dreams
my mother’s handmade cotton quilt
internet and black coffee,
and a big, furry, blue-eyed bundle
of joy curled
my mind is coaxed awake from a particularly long train of thought, not yet asleep not fully awake, it seems as if sweet dreams were being brought on
because I woke up in a million years—my soul floating up to the stars—my lips forming contentment in all its lazy, luxuriant glory,
my hair soft—even after ages in the sun—healing in the shade of night—my eyes heavy with the weight of your dreams and my senses are filled to the brim
my eyes are closing—i’m floating back down into sleep’s folding embrace and my mind is full of your soft peach lips and your sun warmed skin and your raven hair thick and curling between my fingers,
and I’m back again in your deep blue room and wind blown white curtains, your tumbling pile of books your unmade bed where your lips touched mine for the first time, your stack of records and films strewn around without a care because—because I’m full of you, you with your well-worn shorts and laughter bouncing off the walls, the evening sunlight turning you golden and Edward Sharpe singing Home.
And I am, I am. I am truly, truly, home.
disenchanted, lost, hoping:
tragic age of mine.
breathing in the ice
my lungs drowning in white fire
one last gasp for air